What Changes

i realise its getting harder to communicate with people
sometimes i dont even feel like talking
its like a total waste of time
or sometimes i felt that no one can understand
and i wont even bother explaining
even when im explaining, i have the piss off attitude that im ashamed of myself

when im talking to my family members
i tend to be rude and cut them off if i dont feel like listening
but sometimes when i think about how much time i actually spend with them
how often i listen to them and how much they love me
automatically i will put in efforts to listen.

towards some kind of people
i used to talk alot but i realise not many that will really listen to me
sometimes i know that because i tend to go on and on which is endless
but deep down im dissapointed when i find people actually dont care
in my mind i have always thought that if i treat people the way i want them to treat me then its all good.
but the reality is alot people are selfish.
SELFISH!

recently,
i felt that everything round me are like nothing.
santa give me a goal to strive for :)

p/s: will upload pics soon <3
MERRY CHRISTMAS.