rant rant rant and rant

28 people to 18 people
18 people to 8 people..
wtf is going on..
seriously wtf?!
the date's problem?
the guy's problem?
the girl's problem?
my problem?
it's just a freaking outing..
it's just an outing to meet and talk..
arghhhh...
wtf.. I swear SwEAr SwEAR AND SWEAR I WILL NOT ORGANISE ANYTHING ANYMORE FOR this XXX..
wanna go then go..
dun wanna go then kiss my ass..

for a second i was thinking shopping alone might be fun..
watching movie alone might be fun too..
driving, eating, walking alone might be lonely at times..
but when i don't socialise than nothing would have happen..
don't feel like socializing..
maybe i'm getting use to my quiet US life..
which might be a good or bad thing..
but it get me out from problems..
nothing, NOthing, noTHING..

=D hate my heart